Well, this weekend has been a doozy. I had a whole different post planned for today, but I wanted to write this, if only for myself. I realize I don't share too much of my personal life on here, and that's a choice for the majority of the time, but to pretend like I haven't been a little out-of-sorts this past weekend would be really false. My dog, Lucky, had to be put to sleep this weekend - he'd reached a point in his old age where it would be cruel to keep him alive any longer. It broke my heart, and I know some people think 'it's just a pet', but I remember coming home to this tiny little puppy, making little crying sounds in his bed, and holding him on the kitchen floor all night. I grew up with this boy, and him running into my bedroom upstairs whenever there was a storm (Lucky had an insane ability to open doors - literally open a door handle with his paws!). He'd snuggle down at my feet and stay there until morning. I don't know why me being there helped, or maybe he thought he was helping me. He set his head down on my knee when I cried after finding out my cousin died. He was just the best, and I'll miss him always, even if he did have dog breath. 

Living away from home can be hard anytime, but especially at times like this, when I would have wanted to be with my mum to help her, or with him, to hold him and stroke his head while he went. Mum had been trying to keep his spirits up until I visited in January so I could say goodbye, but I didn't want him to suffer anymore. I said my goodbye yesterday evening and this morning, shed some tears, and talked over our favourite memories of him with my mum and J. 

A little more reflective than usual, but sometimes it's important to put things into perspective. I hope you guys have had a lovely few days off, and have a great week ahead, and if you have a little furry friend? Give them a big cuddle for me.

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  1. Oh girl, I'm so, so sorry. I have been a dog person all my life, and I totally understand the relationship you have with a dog. They really are man's (and woman's!) best friend, and people who don't own dogs probably wouldn't fully understand that. They are the most genuine, caring and loyal creatures who love you no matter what, and that's always been a great comfort to me, and I'm sure to you too!

    It sounds like he has had a really happy and long life, with a loving family, and that's all you could hope for. He's in doggy heaven now, doing doggy things and probably over the moon and chasing squirrels or whatever it is dogs do :D

    I'm glad you got to say your goodbyes, even if it wasn't in person. It's important. I never got that, and I still feel sad to this day. I hope it gets a little easier for you, eat some chocolate if you HAVE to ;)

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    1. Ahh lady your comment made me teary! Thank you so much. I did eat some sweetness, I had sticky toffee pudding (wa wa wi wa). Maybe I'll make my first roast this Sunday with my roasting guide to make me feel better! ;) T xx

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  2. Ergh, sorry for your loss :( I've got a dog too, and while she's not that old yet (4), I dread the day she starts developing health problems and leaves us. One of the downfalls of having a pet, sadly, is that they go before we do. Will definitely give my dog a long hug, no matter how uncomfortable she may be with it, hah. x

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    1. Aw thank you Vanessa - what kind of dog do you have? I love them at that age, still so playful and such babies. Enjoy every minute, I hope you have plenty of fun-filled years with her :) And I HOPE SHE ENJOYED THE SQUISH! They love the squish really ;P T xx

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss Tamira. I know how it feels to truly love a pet and I am sorry you've had to go through this! Sending you lots and lots of love and a big hug (which I will hopefully give you in person very soon!). x

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    1. You are the sweetest girl. Thank you, and I hope so much that we're able to have a big hug and coffee in person soon! T x

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  4. Sending lots of love your way! It sounds like Lucky had a fabulous life with your family and all of those happy memories will stay with you forever <3

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    1. Thank you Jennie <3 I hope he had a good life, everyone keeps saying he was the most loved, happy dog, and that makes me feel a lot better. Thanks for reading and your sweet words. T x

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