Hello, 2016.

It feels right for today's post to be my first in a while, because I feel like it has taken me a while to reach this point, and the new year feels like the perfect time to do this.

I usually pick a word at the beginning of the year to be my 'intention' word for the days to come, to keep me grounded and focused and keep my mind on something positive, rather than shortcomings. 2014's word was 'grace', and 2015's followed as 'simplicity'. These are gentle, grounding words that served me fairly well, but I wanted a bit of a stronger challenge this year. I wanted to make 2016 the year I step up. So I chose 'balance'. And that might seem like another gentle, grounding word, but for me? Balance is a challenge.

It always has been. I was an overachiever at school. Book smart. I frowned upon getting a B. I don't say that to show off, it's actually a really important part of what isn't working in my life right now. When I left school, I didn't really know how to make that 'book smarts' work in 'real life'. You can study, be naturally bright and write a lot, apply yourself, you'll get a good grade. A gets you to B. Life, as I'm sure you guys all know, really rarely follows that kind of formula.

I'm not good with messy. I tend to throw myself deeply into one thing and lose sight of all the other things that make me happy or form the whole of my life. I devote a lot of attention and energy to a feeling or a person and then become hugely disappointed in myself when I find little left over for anything else. I set impossibly high standards and then end up rushing something that is sometimes mediocre. The cycle perpetuates itself.

Balance came up in a reading that I had done forever ago - I can't even remember what kind of reading it was, maybe angel cards - a friend passed on a recorded CD to me and this one word kept cropping up - 'balance', 'balance'. The reading said it would be crucial to my happiness and, up until this point, I've just been kind of... waiting for it to happen to me. Like most things in my life, I feel like I'm waiting for it.

But, excuse my language - fuck that for 2016. Fuck waiting around. I want this to be the year I step up. I want to actively seek balance, and check in, and be accountable for my own happiness. I want to share that with you guys. And I know it won't be easy, and I know I'll probably suck at it at first, but I want to get better. 2015 was a bit of a tricky one and more than anything, I want to grab 2016 with both hands and make the best of it.

So let's go, 2016. I'm ready for you. Let's find my happy medium together.

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  1. My word this year is disciplined. I used disciplined rather than discipline because whenever I read it it's like an affirmation that I am disciplined. I love the new look of your site, keep up the hard work.

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    1. Thanks so much Marissa - this means a lot! I like disciplined - that's a strong word and a great affirmation :) I really hope you get exactly what you want out of this year and it's a focused and positive one for you. Thanks so much for your comments, really appreciate you taking the time! T xx

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  2. I've never thought about applying a word to the year, but now I'm going to have to think about it much more as this post resonates a lot with me. Good on you for taking control of your own happiness, you rock.

    Isabelle | www.isabellekategm.co.uk ♡

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    1. Thanks so much Isabelle, this comment made me smile :) I hope a word works for you - it has been a pretty powerful tool for me, especially looking back, to help me understand my behaviour better. Have an amazing new year ahead! T xx

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  3. That is such a fantastic idea, applying a word to a year. I usually write out a bunch of goals and things I would like to achieve by the end of 2015 but they tend to be quite realistic. I can relate to alot of what you mentioned above and wish you every luck in achieving what you set out to in 2016! xx

    Chantalle | cece & grace

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    1. Chantalle, thanks so much - it means the world. I wish you all the best with your goals too! I always find making small manageable goals really helpful at the beginning of the year too, so I've made some little ones for myself and written them down :) 2016 is going to be a good one, I know it! T xx

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  4. Happy New Year, Tamira! I like the idea of choosing an intention word to reflect the year, but it's something I've never thought about putting into action myself because I know come the end of January, I will have forgotten all about it! Haha. I like "balance" though and I know I could use more balance in my life instead of focusing on just one thing and failing to see the bigger picture. We are all responsible for our own happiness and I think it's always the little things like simply changing our attitude that makes all the difference. I want to learn to feel more happy in the present as it's a bit of bad habit of mine to think about the future and how it's all going to be better then. I never seem to be satisfied! In the grand scheme of things, things are pretty great as they are. :)

    http://likeneonlove.com

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    1. Well hello, babe :) I'm much the same but having the blog to look back on definitely keeps me honest, hahah! We are so similar it's untrue, I really hope this year brings more happiness in the present moment for both of us and less worry about things we can't control. I read something somewhere online just before the year started, maybe it was The Nectar Collective or The Fresh Exchange or one of those amazing blogs, and it said: 'You can choose to want less'. I think that's key. I'm going to try to remember that this year :) Have a beautiful one, gorgeous. T xx

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  5. What a wonderful post - never thought of putting a word to the new year!

    Saskia / girlinbrogues.com

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