I've made no secret that winter is one of the hardest times of year for me to stay 'upbeat' and happy. I suffer with Seasonal Affective Disorder and have done for some time now, and this year seems particularly hard because I wasn't able to get home over the Christmas and New Year period like I usually am. For anyone that lives far from their family home, you'll empathise - sometimes this whole 'striking out on your own' shit is tough AF. 

This week in particular has been a rough one. February has been good to me so far and brought with it great news, lots of exciting plans, lighter days and evenings and a lot to be happy about, but I just haven't been feeling myself the past couple of days. Everything seems to be piling up a bit and I'm feeling restless, like I need to have it all figured out yesterday. I find it difficult as someone whose general disposition leans towards happiness to not find immediate solutions to my problems. I struggle with making peace with where my mind is at if I find myself falling short of my own expectations.

I can't shake this feeling that this isn't where I'm supposed to be at the moment, and maybe it's time to move. On, forward, towards something new. I don't know. It's really unsettling, and upsetting at times. I look around and see proof of reasons to feel contented and grateful for the very blessed life I have, but I just can't lift my own mood.

Rather than posting a bunch of 'tips and tricks' today, I wanted to open this up and ask: what do you all do during the winter months to make life a little easier? My go-to would be to take a long soak in my tub, but that's out with our current hot water situation at the new flat (a whole other conundrum).

I think it might be time to centre again and get focused on what I'm hoping to achieve for myself this year, revisit my goals, and try and give myself small things to work on every day to help feel that if I'm not my best right now, I'm at least working on it. Perhaps that will help. It's such a strange thing, learning your coping mechanisms and then having to re-learn them all over again when the obstacles in front of you change. I'm so, so ready for a new season. 

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  1. Everything you've written has really resonated with me, I haven't felt like myself for a while as well and there's not one specific thing I can pin that down to. I'm trying to stay focused on my running and training for my 10km but with the weather being so grim it's hard to keep that going. The best thing I've found is to just accept that things are going to be difficult for a whole but that it will have to get better sooner or later. The universe has bigger plans for me (I hope!)

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    1. Thanks for commenting Nina - it's so nice to know I'm not the only one feeling this way! Training for a 10k is pretty huge though, and what an undertaking at this time of year! Hopefully it gives you focus - my boyfriend ran a 10k and counts it as one of the most rewarding things he's ever done... I hope it's the same for you :) We can't assume to know everything that's going on 'behind the scenes' in the bigger picture of our lives, so I suppose the way to 'get through' these seasons of discomfort is just to know that we will 'get through'. We have done before! Thanks so much for reading and commenting, lovely. T x

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  2. Aww, I've never been diagnosed but I definitely think I have some degree of SAD as well because I find winter really hard to get through, and it's not even anywhere near as cold in Australia. I find whenever I'm sad what cheers me up is to either write about it (if it's serious) in a paper journal because I really like not having any audience so I feel like I can write completely honestly to myself, and I also find it really helpful for working through things and trying to get to the root of why I feel the way that I do and what is really upsetting me.

    If it's not as major or if I'm just feeling sad for no real reason (i.e. the cold) I'll try and keep myself really busy so I feel like I'm accomplishing something. Even if it's touching up my roots or cleaning out my underwear drawer or whatever else, writing a list and crossing things off it helps me feel better.

    jessica - littlehenrylee.com

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    2. Aah Jessica, winter just sucks mostly! I'm sorry you suffer with it too. I find writing lists and checking them off really helps me also. In fact, I bought a bunch of new stationery from Kikki.K recently for the sole reason that checking off lists and writing things down is so therapeutic to me! Only problem is - it's all so beautiful, I don't want to write in it! Hahahaha, how ridiculous. I hope you're enjoying the warmer months now though and that all is well. Thanks so much for reading and commenting me. T xx

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