We've reached the last 31 days of 2017.

I wrote this on my Twitter on Friday night and it hardly seemed real. Today, we're on to our final 27, and that seems even less real. I punctuate each one of these monthly posts, which I love, with 'somehow we've reached' and it doesn't get any less true. December has arrived in the same whirlwind I felt began somewhere around January, and maybe that was still a continuation of the total mindfuck that was 2016. As I write, President Trump is still President (although, thankfully, that seems to come with the caveat of *just about* at this point), Brexit is still happening (again, same caveat), I'm about to enter into the year I turn 30, my Christmas tree is lit and beside me for the last time in this flat probably.

Yes, the new year looks like it will come with a move - only a few doors down, but thankfully to a bigger space. I'll have an office with an honest-to-God window and space to roll out my yoga mat. We'll have a slightly bigger kitchen to litter with washing up and a slightly bigger boiler for all those super indulgent winter baths we haven't quite kicked the habit of, despite best efforts. On paper, 2017 has been a banner year. So why do I come up feeling like it has slipped through my hands?

When I think back to the beginning of the year, and choosing 'abundance' as my word for 2017, I have to smile. The phrase 'careful what you wish for' comes to mind. It has been a year of plenty and a year of change, all culminating in this wonderful month of cosiness, family time and yes - excess. And perhaps, on reflection, this is what I'm really feeling - the excess of it all. The weight of the noise I have created in rushing forward, pursuing goals and setting deadlines for myself that had no business being there. As I approach this month and the new year ahead of me, I want to remember that. I want to make traditions and memories, not deadlines and pages of goals. I want to take care of my body and mind, not take every extraneous comfort that won't nourish me. Most of all, I want to surround myself with those I love the most, not 'stuff'.

I hope your December is a peaceful one, full of love and loved ones, and yes - mincepies and mulled wine, but moments and memories, most of all.

SEE: One thing I'm so sad to have missed in my local cinema is Call Me By Your Name - it just looks like the most beautiful piece of cinematography. We're heading into Oscar season though, so cinema fodder is rife, and let's not pretend like we're not all really jazzed for the next instalment of the Star Wars reboot. I watched 'The Force Awakens' on Netflix the other night and remembered just how special it was. However, the thing I am MOST excited about seeing this month - uncontested - is Hamilton. I am so, so thrilled to be going to one of the preview nights with one of my best friends and I can't even write about it anymore because too excited and I just want to random letter all over the keyboard.

LISTEN: Here it is - the Ed Sheeran and Beyonce song? Really not a fan. There I said it. You all know how I feel about Bey by now but this is so schmaltzy and the cynic in me says it's purely facilitated for a Christmas #1 spot-grab. What I've been listening to over and over again is Sia's Christmas album, particularly Snowflake. I've also loved my baby cuz's Live Lounge cover of Finders Keepers/Walk On Water/New Rules/No Scrubs (yep, she DID that). And the Rihanna verse on Lemon is a gift to us all, forever and ever Amen.

GO: We've booked a last minute trip to spend New Year's Eve and the beginning of 2018 with my family in Dubai, and one of the places I'm most looking forward to visiting while we're there is actually in another city - the new Louvre Abu Dhabi looks so beautiful, and it's been such a long time since I visited I feel like I should update myself on all the new things happening there. I can't believe there's going to be another Guggenheim there soon!

EAT: I'm really excited to be having our office Christmas party at The Alchemist in Oxford. It's a really cool steampunk-styled bar and restaurant, and the menu alone made me absolutely drool - I'm sure judging by the constant queues around the place that the food and legendary cocktails must be well worth the hype. We're truly being spoilt for choice at the minute with the new Westgate!

DRINK: It's mulled wine and mulled cider time, so grab yourself something warm and clove-infused and you'll be on the right track. Make your own on your hob and fill your house with the comforting scents of the season.

WEAR: Parties abound during December and I've been looking for my perfect 'can permit a food baby and still look glam' outfit - I think H&M might just have bailed me out of trouble. Whilst I would love to have the denari to buy this beaut Rixo London number, 'tis the season to give graciously, good will to all men and that. So H&M have gone and done a lovely and made a Tami price range affordable version. Cheers, you babes.

READ: I have so many books to catch up on it's untrue but if you're in the mood for a long read this piece on Greta Gerwig's Radical Confidence made my whole day last month. And yes, I would otherwise link Jay Z's interview with Dean Baquet here but to we really need to be giving more airtime to toxic male behaviour, apology or no apology?

THINK: Forgive yourself. That's all. Sometimes your achievements don't look the way you think they should, sometimes the goals and 'to dos' you set for yourself are too much for the peak hours of productivity you have in a day. Winter is a natural signal for hibernation, gathering and slowing down. Grace and gratitude, and forgiveness. And together. Because that's what December is really all about.

PS - I might've appeared on the Sky News site in November so if you need me, I'll still be broadcasting all my snowflake feelings on my Twitter feed for journalists to use as important representations of ~youf~. Laterrrrrr.

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